I was reading a devotional that my girlfriend gave me called STREAMS IN THE DESERT the other day and God laid it out plain and simple. Its been a while since I have heard His voice so definitively speaking into my life. He is stripping me of my ability to do it without Him. My whole life if something has happened then I have just pulled myself up by my boot straps and gone to work. Where that is an honorable trait to have, thats not what God wants. I have never learned to really just lean on Him and His strength... to just accept the fact that He has already won. He has already conquered. He is.
Honestly, its as if Pandora's Box has been opened. The other fold to this lesson is learning not to cry out when I am going through a tough time, "God save me!" But to breathe and ask God what it is He would have me to learn.
Its kind of funny, at the age 25 that I have been complaining about feeling as if God has been just taking me in circles for three years. Every time I would find myself in need I would react in anger or complete brokenness on the verge of a mini depression almost, where I wouldnt accomplish anything for days at a time. For three years I reacted instead of responding to the call of God to come closer, to be a student, to grow in my strength in the Lord, to be Fathered.
Its as if a vail has lifted and I am learning to dance in the storm unafraid of getting dirty. There has to be an acceptance of getting dirty to really appreciate the cleanliness that comes from getting closer to God.
As far as TRAIL goes, things are blowing up; its incredible the difference I have been able to see as I learn to hold the ministry with an open hand. I am leaving Monday morning to head into the woods for a week on a scouting trip in the Chattooga River Area. We have three trips planned for the Spring of 2011.
God is really pouring out His vision and His blessings on TRAIL. Starting October 10th around 250 letters of support are hitting the mail. We are praying in and believing for $30,000 in 30 days. We are calling the $30k in 30. Its a huge step for us, but to a God that holds the infinite amount of money and support in His hand, whats $30k?
I honestly havent been so excited and so nervous about anything in my life. I have been convicted a few times because I will catch myself praying not in belief that God is going to do it but praying that I wouldnt lose heart if we dont raise all $30k. When that happens, God reminds me that there is no fear in love and that fear really is the "faith" of evil. The Board of Directors and I have prayed over this number and feel this is where God is leading so we a running after His call because He has set us free. (Psalm 119:32)
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